Remembering...

When you have experienced something life changing, why is it so easy to forget what life was like in that moment, instance, experience? Why is it so hard to be consistent with what has changed? Why cant we just remember...

It seems as though many of the people that came bcak from Mexico, myself included, are struggling to answer the question "What is it going to take to live life here in Missouri like we did in Mexico?"
If Mexico is truly an extension of life, then we know that the love we shared and experienced down there was something real and relevant in our lives here...
If Mexico is truly an extension of life, the community shaped and supported there is reflection of growth of the community we have here...

Through converstions, through experiences, we CAN live the life we lived in Mexico.
Dont forget what God did to me, to you , to us in Mexico.
Be aware of opportunities to live the life.

At the end of the day, God is God. God will allow us to find the life we found in Mexico in him here.

God will do wonders...the question is, will we miss the experience that he has invited us to be a part of.

It's happening. Dont miss it.

Weiss

Anticipation...

Tomorrow i leave on a 26-hour bus ride to place ive never been, with the sole purpose of loving, serving, and glorifying God.

My prayer is that i dont miss what this extension of life is going to be. I pray that i go in anticipation of what God will do next, not journey with my head down.

To me, anticipation is a good measuring stick of where your relationship with God is...

Will i GO knowing who He is and what He can do and what even more abundant things He will do?
or...
Will i go with lack of intamcy and experiences with God, hoping that maybe He might just fill me with the ever-fading "warm-and-fuzzies"?

He will do amazing things, but will i anticipate something more than i have ever experienced?

Weiss

Worship...

Worship has become a warped form of something that is the complete opposite of what was originally intended...
...it's own "style" in Chiristian music
...an emotional experience that is memorable
...and if we're not careful, an ego trip

But i ask myself, How did Jesus worship? He didnt have music, and he definately didnt do it for the ego trip.

So, what was worship for Jesus? ... Surrender.
He was surrendered completely to the will of His Father. And it was worship in the purest form.
"At the cross You beckon me
Draw me gently to my knees, and I am
Lost for words, so lost in love
Im sweetly broken, wholly surrendered"
- Jeremy Riddle "Sweetly Broken"

Wholly surrendered, in our brokeness, worshiping God in spirit and in truth.
Worship= SURRENDER

We will never understand true, intamate worship unitl we look through the eyes of a surrendered child.
I want to experinece this...

Weiss

In Gods Hands...

Its in His hands now...

I have always had trust problems with God. I was afraid that if he was in control, things wouldnt come out the way i wanted them to.

But, when i was at the end of my rope, when i couldnt take it anymore, He was the only one holding on to me. And i didnt even trust Him then.

But i guess i never really had a desire to trust Him. I didnt want to trust someone I didnt even know. Intamtely.

But, now I know of the wonderous Father thats desires me and my struggles, and the miracles he does with failures. Why wouldnt i want to trust Him?

Its in His hands now, and i finally feel free.

Weiss

When...

When...
When will i know...
When will you tell me...
When will i go to sleep not wondering wheter or nor you thought of me today...
When will you relize that i think of you every day...
When will this end...
When will we be back to the way things used to be...
When will i stop centering my life around something thats not even there...
When can i stop...
When?

Focus...

Its been a touchy subject for me lately.
Struggling with the questions of:
1.)"Should I refocus every day?"-This implies that I lose focus every day and need to redirect it (which is mostly true)
or...
2.)"What can I do to keep my focus on God every day?"- Because I know I want to, I know I can, and I should, but I dont know how.

Help?

Much Love,
Weiss

Love Not Wanted...

Facebook. Amazing. Facebook chat? AMAZINGER!!!!
Its 3:03 in the morning and i just got done having a converstion with a friend that ive never even met.
It went something like this...

He feels extremely sad about his life. He has searched for love in girls and relationships but hasnt quite found the thing that will satisfy his thirst. He wants love, but not from an invisible deity.
But, he is curious about what "your god has to offer."
He is convinced that he doesnt need God's love and can make it on his own.

But, what bothers me is not that he doesnt want God's love, but rather that i havent reflected God's love in such a way that it irresistablly attractive and beautiful.

So, i try to cover up my fake and inauthentic reflection of God by fancying Him up, trying to use words to make him sound satifying.

Why is it i have to resort to words to express my relationship with God instead of living a life that brings glory to God through it's intamcy?

My prayer is that I, we as Christians, shut our mouths and start living the Life that God has called us to live.

Much Love,
Weiss

Exaggeration...

So im sitting at my kitchen table, chowin down on a bowl of Cheerios, reading an article that my friend Bruce James gave me. The article is "Dont Forget The Basics: Remembering God's Goodness When Faith Is Difficult", and I have to say, its pretty stinkin awesome. As im reading through it, its talking about what we have to remind ourselves of everyday in order to keep our faith in check (because we all know that there are an infinite number of distractions just waiting to remove our focus from God), i spotted something that was very freeing...

"Many Spirit-filled authors have exhausted the thesaurus in order to describe God with the glory He deserves. His perfect holiness, by definintion, assures us that our words can't contain Him. Isn't it a comfort to worship a God we cannot exaggerate?"

Isn't it!? A God that no matter how well we try to dress up and present beautifully to others, exceeds our words ten-fold?

I cannot fathom the glory of God, yet I know Him as though he is my own Father.

Freeing.

Much Love,
Weiss

Starting Over...

My last blog, "Life In His Light", was unhealthy. I used it as a a way of making myself known to others and hopefullly recieve praise through it. I only posted a single post, but it felt...empty. It felt like i wasnt saying those words, but rather a different me... a selfish me.

So, if you are reading, kow this...

Thank you for reading, but do not take this as a way for me to recieve praise from anyone. My blog is strictly a way of sharing my life; what I learn, who i meet, where i go, etc.

My prayer is that this blog helps bring relevance to life.

Much Love,
Weiss